the thin line

today we went for a walk outside. mother theresa is displayed in every town - she has become a god. i wonder what she would say about that?

i know that it is important to share the gospel - but how important is it to share an opinion? i think i would like to scoot away from confrontation, and i understand that about myself and how it isn't always a good thing to avoid. some things need to be spoken, right or wrong, just to get them out of your mind and into the light. exposed. but some things, i wonder if it causes more harm than good.

like yoga. we as christians have convictions that others do not share. even other christians do not agree on these convictions. is it important to share these, to debate these? sometimes i'd rather not. but then maybe we would just be keeping things on the surface and not getting to the deeper truths, or deeper discussions? i don't have an answer, but these are my questions.

and what does it mean to be a good witness? i believe true love and faith conquers all. and what about joy? fear of the influence of something - is that a good testimony? i just don't think it is. to fear yoga, to fear false teachers or prophets....or would we call it awareness? it is good to be aware. but not to fear. fear gives power where power ought not be.

i know i don't have things figured out. and i don't want to criticize. i wonder if sometimes i feel like i have all the answers and how silly i must appear to those who are wiser than myself - these people are many.

i err on the side of love, compassion i think. maybe i'm too soft. maybe i am too wounded from the legalism i grew up with. and maybe, just maybe i need to let that go and learn to forgive those false teachers and prophets and get back to the middle of moderation. god is teaching me things, revealing my criticism of those legalists who have crushed grace to a mere word, and i've reacted. my life has been a sort of reaction at times, and i know this isn't right either.

that thin line of moderation