but now

i guess i have a chip on my shoulder, and i don't like that
i mean, no one says when they're young,
"when i grow up, i want to have a chip on my shoulder"
as it became clear that was an issue of mine i immediately thought, how do i fix this?
i realized quickly that the bible concordance doesn't list "chip" much less "chip on shoulder"
so what to do?
i know that there are solutions to every battle in the bible....or maybe not solutions, definitely direction...but i kinda feel like the solution for how to fix a fully developed chip isn't in there. if i would've followed instructions the first time this chip wouldn't even exist.
but i've never been much of a rule follower - and there are positives and negatives to this
i have adventures and risks and fun stories to tell
but when it comes to the part, the part of my heart, it's built up a harder surface than others, to deal with the pain and disappointments that have come from my own rebellious nature.
i get how it all works, the cause and effect
but now
what can i do to get rid of this chip? sometimes i wonder if all the experiences were worth the consequences?
again the struggle of perfection, the battle between two definitions, and the reality that its beyond my grasp anyway
perfection, like beauty, lies in the eye of the beholder
alas
maybe this is the reason for the chip
the endless pursuit to please people who each have a different perception
let go let go let go let go