Saturday, May 30, 2009

looking, seeking, londa, londa

i'm looking for something to believe in, and i know i've found the ultimate, i know i have the source, i'm aware that he's everything i should be looking for...but i'm yearning for a piece of him in another. i'm longing for truth, for someone to believe in i guess. and i wonder if that's a sure endeavour? could someone believe in me? i let you down often.

i am not alone in the desert, i know. i'm not the only one, but what happened to living for something greater? i'm broken too, the scars are deeper than the eye can see, but this desire inside of me, it's unyielding. unyielding. a word i have grown fond of over the past few days. i can't escape it, to want something more. and the disillusionment. the confusion. it's all a lie, i have to believe, it's a lie aimed to destroy my heart and my hope.

i hope that someday you see beyond what's in front of you. i pray for you, that you will have hope enough to know that you are not alone, that it's worth believing in something, worth living for something beyond the reactions and fruitless exploits of our souls. i pray for you, that you will hold on, and know the truth. because i am looking and seeking, waiting for you. londa londa, my heart yearns for something greater, something greater in you. something to believe in, someone who believes.

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